I was recently watching a video in my church house group about a woman struggling with her marriage. One of the most notable things she shared was how she had gotten “bored with God."

It struck me because I was shocked by the idea that anyone could be bored with God! This is the same God that created the universe, sent his son down from Heaven and sent a shockwave through the world with the resurrection. Who could be bored with that?! Yet, faith is not really exciting for people anymore. And, frankly, I can see why.

There were many feelings I expected to have at a conference I’d been looking forward to attending. Acceptance. Fun. Camaraderie. On paper, these were my people. They lead organizations. I lead an organization. They are vulnerable. I am vulnerable. Like me, they know the stresses of deadlines, trying to balance kids with ministry, and the nagging sense that we should keep hidden the fact that we have the pizza delivery place on speed dial.

Is life becoming bland? Are you sick of mercilessly going through the motions of a daily routine? Do you miss the vibrancy of childhood; running freely during kindergarden recess? Playing with blocks and building castles? Playing princess with your besties outside amongst the trees? Making “houses” out of leaves during autumn, and snow angels during the winter snow season?

Finding security in oneself is a tricky thing to do. As humans, we are always falling down. When I look back on some of my experiences both in my personal life, and as someone who mentors and counsels others, I see a theme throughout humanity: we try to rely solely on ourselves and we never have enough strength, enough forgiveness, and ultimately we are always slaves to our own devices.